Sorry again for the pause in posting, had issues with the server and couldn't get much to upload, the problem seems to be fixed now.
Friday was an alright day. I am still having trouble concentrating at work, but I am getting a bit more done, I don't feel like I am hopelessly spinning my wheels (but I am still behind and need to work more efficiently.
I am getting better, but I have to admit I still hope for some miracle cure that will my brain chemistry normal, and I won't have to worry about being BP at all. I know this is just fantasy, there is no cure, you just have to learn to manage it, still I hope.
Chronic illnesses of any kind just suck. Whether it's diabetes, Lupas, BP or anything else, it's not fair that some people have to deal with crap like this their entire lives. Worse yet, the people who get the illnesses selected at random. There is nothing that one can do to avoid them besides coming up with som eway to alter your DNA.
I sometimes really get donw on everything, because it just isn't fair I have to deal with all this. But I try to tell myself that without my messed up head, I wouldn't be me. I'm not willing to change who I am, even if it does make the BP go away. Somehow I got my wife to fall in love with me, I have a great relationship with my family, and I have two of the best little boys in the world for my sons. So when you get right down to it, I guess I'm happy to be crazy.
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