BP Type II

Yet another attempt at starting up again

Well, after another long layoff I am back again.  Over the past few months I have had some struggles, I don't mean for them to be an excuse for not posting to this, but I hope they offer an explanation.  I've modified my meds a couple times and seem to have some upon a new mix that is doing the trick.  However, my new sleep aid/AD (whose name escapes me at the moment, seems to be a pretty powerful appetite enhancement, so I am struggling to keep off all the weight I've lost. 

News Roundup

Eli Lilly has some labeling issues

I'd gladly risk dibetes to avoid psychosis.  I onder why they resisted the label for so long.

Mother of the year candidate

Talk about an idiotic suggesttion from therapists!  Your bipolar teenager is suffering through a manic or depressed episode.  What we suggest is that you not only leave her alone, but that you make her walk arround in public by herself.  I don't have a license to give therapy, but this seems like an obviously idiotic idea to me.

BP in the Jackson trial

and here

I hope they aren't relly going to try and sell BP as an excuse for being a con-artist.  This isn't to say I don't think Jackson is a child molestor, there's a decent chance he is.  However, it also appears clear that the accuser's mom was a grifter.

Relapse

Well, it seems I've had a relapse over the past few months.  Actually, I don't know if it can be called a relapse.  It is probably more accurate to say I've lost control of my BP.  I am trying to get the control back now, and I think I'm slowly getting back to mornal life.

The Sabbatical is Over

I apologize for my extended absence, but life has changed greatly in the last two months.  I am pleased to announce I have my new business set up and my partner and I have purchased a building.  Our office will officially opene in April.  It's exciting, yet very scarey at the same time.  I think that this is the result of BP, I just don't trust my thoughts.  Still, I think I'm making a sound business decision, I guess we will just wait and see.

Health Insurance Issues

Well it looks like there may finally be some hope on the health insurance front.  New legislation in the State of Washington may finally require health insurance companies to treat mental illness as an actual illness.  We will see if this actually takes hold, I sure hope it does.  Now if it'd just spread to the rest of the country so I could take advantage of it.

Mental-health patients likely to get equal insurance coverage, The Seattle Times

House OKs mental health insurance bill

Daily Log2/1/05

I think I am making sense of some long term issues that I didn't realized were tied so closely to my illness.  To be BP is to possess a wonder lust that strikes every so often and at times feels almost impossible to resist.  I've been out of school since December of 1997.  In that time I've had 4 jobs (about one every two years).  I haven't been fired, it's just that after a little less than two years I've been overcome by a nearly compulsive need to change jobs.  To work some place new because I believe it wile solve all my problems.

The latest news roundup

Here is the latest news regarding other individuals with BP:

Ex-Oakland Raider shot by police

Barret Robbins, widely know for disappearing from the Super Bowl a few years ago, was shot several times in an altercation with police.  Apparently, he refused their commands to stop and eventually they had to shoot him when they were attacked.  Can you imagine a violently manic mind in a 6'6" plus 300 lb plus body?  It's a shame he had to be shot, but it was probably the only way to stop him.

Robbins' condition worsens

Sadly, it appears that he may not recover from his injuries.  I am not sure if my earlier statement was correct.  I don't know if he was manic or depressed and attempting to commit suicide by cop.  Either way it's sad.  I feel sorry for him, and I feel sorry for the guy's who were forced to shoot a sick person or else loose their own lives.

Daily Log 1/29/2005

Hello, all!  I apologize for my absence.  As my wonderful wife said, I've been very busy splitting my time between my current job, starting my own business, and my family.  Things have been hectic, but also pretty good.

Daily Log 01/15/05

Trying to do the daily logs on a "daily" basis.  A radical idea I know, but I'm going to give it a go.

Today I put my stability to the test.  I stayed at home alone with my 3 and 1 year old boys and let my wife have a morning out of the house without all the guys bugging her.  Things went well, and I enjoyed myself, but little kids can be quite frustrating, they're as moody as I am.

Should I get treatment?

In response to Lathan's question, yes, you should shine light on it.  Now, if your career is in question you keep it confidential, HIPPA regs pretty much guarantee your privacy.  If anyone discloses the illness without your consent, you've just been handed a very lucrative lawsuit!  If you are in a job where mental health can literally get you fired or removed from duty (if you have to carry a gun or otherwise be armed for instance) I suggest you quietly get an evaluation at your own expense (don't turn it in to insurance) and see what the extent of your illness is.  By paying for it yourself you can be sure no one will ever know.  Once you have the results, then you can make a better decision.